The Book I Couldn't Find,
So I Wrote It

On May 21, 2021 I died! Alive as Fuck is the book I went looking for at two in the morning and couldn't find. After a rare stroke stopped my heart and rewrote my life at the studs, I read every clinical, careful, hopeless recovery book out there — and not one of them told me the thing I actually needed to hear: that it gets better. So I wrote that one.

This is the honest, funny, unflinching story of how I rebuilt myself, one stubborn day at a time, using four simple pillars — and came back not as the woman I used to be, but as a braver, louder version of her. It isn't a medical book and it isn't a pity party. It's for anyone whose life has cracked down the middle and who needs proof, from someone who's been there, that a comeback is still possible. Different, yes. But so much better.

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